Why this name? Well for many reasons I will explain later, but you need to understand that he looks just like me. He acts like me, he talks like me, he thinks like me. The only difference is that he does not want to be happy. He wallows in his sadness, and worst of all, he wants to spread it. Yours does too.
Now why on earth do we have (and more importantly NEED) to have a Mr. Scratch? That is another question that I will answer later. You see, this is my first continuation post, it has various parts to help you and I both understand our natural man and his incredible hunger for power and destruction. This is his introduction, if you are not familiar with him. He is the real enemy to us and everything we do.
We see time and time again that for every action there is a reaction, a counterpart that negates or reacts. For us, that is a part of our bodies. Psychology defines this as three parts called the Ego, the Super Ego, and Id. The two heavyweights are the Super Ego and ID. Super Ego wants what is right, it is the part that is good in us, the selfless part that fights for equality, godliness and fairness. Id wants only what it wants, pleasure. However it gets that pleasure is really not its concern, only that it does get it. Ego then decides which one to follow. We are essentially the Ego, as a whole.
Mr. Scratch (otherwise known as Id) wants me to fight, to hate. Mr. Scratch wants me to not learn from my mistakes so I can go through them again and again, so that I can learn to love, and need that kind of suffering and pain. Mr. Scratch wants to give me hell. No, mr. Scratch wants me to give myself hell.
So our greatest enemy is a part of ourselves? Yes, and no. You see, mr. Scratch, while essentially me, is not me. God did not create him, he merely became a part of me when I was seperated from God. He represents all of my doubt and fear. He represents everything I should not and cannot be. But he is what I think I want to be. He makes things sound very good. He plays with our senses and manipulates them to make us think that this is good. Everything he does has in fact something good to it, though there are dark undertones. It is not done properly, and therefore one cannot obtain and enjoy the rich blessings of the principle.
It becomes an awful drug, a fix. We become addicted to our own demise, wanting, needing even, more of the poison that will eventually kill us if we do not rid ourselves of it. Mr. Scratch is the worst virus, killing its host simply by planting ideas and thoughts in it.
The next couple posts will be about fighting Mr. Scratch. My external hate and enemy have been released, I have departed, but now my battle turns to the really ugly side: myself. Now it is time for me to look at myself and to be able to fight the wrong side. Now it is the time to overthrow my hate for love, to be able to forgive myself for what I have done. Now is the time that I refill those holes in my soul with work and charity. This is the true nature of repentance, to be able to refill our souls, now empty of sin, with an incredible and unyeilding love for our Savior.
There is hope, though for how long we do not know. Why stall our own redemption? Doing so is only letting Mr. Scratch come one step a little closer to being able to have power over you. You do not want this. This is the reason my blog is titled "Immortal Combat," because this is our fight to earn eternal happiness. This is our fight against Mr. Scratch. This is our fight against ourselves to become someone better.
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