Flawed Genesis: The Test

     For a long time I have debated about starting a blog. Why didn't I? Well, for a million reasons, what if it is not cool, what if what I have to say is lame or what if people make fun of my grammar or word usage? My fear is that what I was writing about, which is a reflection of my thoughts, would not be important or necessary to others. The reality: it may not, and this may just be nothing short of a journal for me to be able to see what I was thinking at such and such time, but I am ok with that. All too many times we forget the past we say we never will. How? We don't write it down. I never really liked writing a journal, the day to day works of my life I am not so interested in. I am interested in the patterns though, the choices I make and the thoughts I think. That is why I am writing this blog, for me, and hopefully you too can learn a thing or two, from my mistakes or from impressions.
     This blog is dedicated to learning. What about and why? Learning anything about us is important, whether good or bad, because it is a part of the person we deal with most: us. We are always with us, and we can never escape us no matter how hard we run or well we hide, we are still right there with us. Once we accept this, that is when we can start to accept that we are who we are. Now that does not mean that we can carelessly throw our lives and productivity away simply because we have lazy tendancies, but it is good to understand that you may be dealing with a lack or motivation in your life. I do not use the word "accepting" as a way to excuse oneself, but rather to realize that there is a problem so that one can start the process to change, or celebrate what one does well. Yes, change is possible, as mortals, only so far, but the process of trying, the act of rejecting something bad or not productive is something healthy. It is something immortal, something higher than what we are right now.
     This is the reason that I am tryping up this blog right now, so that I can get a better understanding of what on earth I am thinking about right now, to try and pin point my troubled mind so that I can tackle my countless issues. The blog is titled "Immortal Combat: Fighting The Natural Man" for a reason, it is so that I can come closer to my Father in Heaven, so that I can shed the simple, carnal pleasures and yearnings of man. That is our Test. I will never be perfect, and I will never be able to do those things completely as long as I am still a mortal man. It is our flawed Genesis on this earth, we cannot be perfect. But that is not the goal for our test.
    What then, is the goal? How do we pass this test? I want you to answer that for me. I don't care if you write it in a comment, or if you simply think about it, but if you do either I will have accomplished my goal for this blog. How can we go on to become greater, better people? How do we love everyone, even those that hurt us and do not love us back? How do we return with honor to our Father who has sent us here?
    This is a longer post, and I thank you for the time you have put into reading this, but I need even more. I need you to ask these questions to yourself, and then to try to answer them. No, I take it back, do not just answer them, try to LIVE them. It is hard. I am particularly struggling with loving those who do not love us, loving those who have hurt me. But I promise I am trying, that I am asking my Heavenly Father every day multiple times to be able to have that kind of change of heart. I know that we can be changed, but it takes something higher than us, it takes Him. Are we willing to do what it takes to change and be humble, especially when there is no earthly profit available from it, or even potential lost friendships? That is something that I have had to ask myself, that we will all have to ask ourselves. What will you choose?

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J.M.A